I hope everyone is doing well and that the energies have been treating you kindly. It's been rather intense here; things have felt super heavy and lethargic. My friends and I have been feeling rather exhausted and drained this past week, and even Tsuki has been doing a lot more sleeping than usual. My guess is that it is in at least part due to the full moon/lunar eclipse; astrological events usually have an energetic pull. It could also be in part to burnout and intense demands from life. Hoping the rest of the year eases up a bit because it's been rather crushing as of late. I've heard from quite a number of people that they're just barely hanging on by a thread, and I feel that. If you want to learn more about the recent full moon in Taurus and lunar eclipse, feel free to check out the following videos:
It was super challenging Monday morning. On the plus side, I had the day off since I accidentally fell back asleep for two hours. Both times I woke up, I felt energized yet exhausted, like I was ready to get up yet getting up was too much effort and too draining. It was overwhelming, and I wasn't sure what to do about it. From what I could remember about my dreams, I had been at some kind of carnival/special event like Comic Con with April. We were playing some games, having some fun, and then there was a weird vibe/energy. Everyone got ushered into hiding because there was a shooter on the loose. I ended up separated from April. Apparently, the event was taking place at a school, and there were a number of young students (like elementary school aged) still there. They were quite upset and scared, understandably so. I was in a small room that seemed to possibly be a staff lounge with students and a couple of teachers. I offered to join hands with them and pray. The students took me up on it as did one of the teachers. The kids were visibly relieved. The energy felt a lot lighter, too. The kids started getting picked up by their parents, and people seemed to be double-checking areas to make sure there weren't any accomplices or anything. I met back up with April and ended up contacting my mom. Apparently, the staff had alerted families about the situation in a way without actually telling them what was going on--all they had told my mom was that I "wasn't feeling well." It was strange. More likely happened, but that's all I could remember once I awoke.
Tuesday morning was a bit challenging to wake up, as I was still feeling rather tired, but it wasn't as weird as the past two mornings. At least I didn't wake up feeling like a contradiction. My dream recall was kind of fuzzy, but from what I could remember, I was at my grandpa's church for some reason. There was some kind of service going on, but Willy Wonka showed up for some reason (or someone very like him). He had some kind of weird contraption with him. It was some kind of mechanical transportation (sort of looked like a walking snowmobile) that had a giant nose for identifying scents. Not sure why he was there or what the purpose was. More likely happened, but that's all I could remember once I woke up.
My dream recall was pretty hazy Wednesday morning. At one point there was some kind of scavenger hunt/treasure hunt. A small group went to the library to consult some obscure text. Then they stumbled upon a whole in the ground that sort of looked like it connected to some kind of underground cave system/old civilization. There was a "lake" inside, and further ahead there looked like there was all of this treasure/golden items submerged at the bottom of the "lake." More happened, but that's all I could remember. I woke up wanting to go back to sleep Thursday morning--just so tired. Dream recollection was veiled in a haze, so I had no idea what transpired. It was a struggle waking up Friday morning, and dream recall was pretty murky. There was something about fishing, something about going to some kind of party for my younger cousin, something about some restaurant, and something about some store named Cornerstone. Specific details were rather fuzzy. More likely happened, but that's what I could remember upon waking.
Saturday was quite the struggle. I unintentionally fell back asleep, and even after like 11 hours of sleep, I was completely exhausted. It felt like way too much to be awake and do anything. It just felt so heavy and draining. My dream recall was pretty hazy, but it involved some kind of trip or vacation I think. Chris Luck was there, and I think I ended up driving him places. Felt like a lot happened in the dream, but that's all I could remember from it.
It was a struggle falling asleep Saturday night, but I at least woke up less tired this morning. Even though I wasn't as exhausted as yesterday morning, it was still an extreme struggle getting out of bed. I simultaneously wanted to get out of bed and be productive while also wanting to just stay cozy in bed because it was too much effort and energy. The stay in bed feeling was stronger, so I ended up doing so for an extra two hours of so; it was just too much. My dream recall was kind of fuzzy. There was something about the main team of kids from Codename Kids Next Door getting swallowed by a whale. It seemed to be some kind of alien whale, though, because inside of its mouth/throat these neon-ish, bioluminescent bubbles would ooze out and be full of this corrosive acid stuff. Not sure how they got out, but the next thing I could remember was being in the car with April, Iris, and April's mom driving to what seemed to be a festival or state fair either by the beach, a lake, or a river. My dad showed up I think and maybe one of my brothers. There was something about this chicken being there and that we could buy eggs. Not really sure what else happened because details got really muddled.
The boys were excited to have Monday off as part of their 4-day weekend, but they were a bit grumpy the rest of the week, getting onto each other's nerves and starting arguments. They also had little patience for Theo (who I think is technically still a puppy but has gotten quite big). In all fairness, Theo is super extra and doesn't seem to ever learn anything. By the end of the week they seemed in better spirits and were excited to just relax at home.
Tsuki was her typical goofy self, but she also felt the lethargic energies and chose to snooze a lot more. It was definitely a week that was heavy on the rest and relaxation (probably in part due to the significant drop in temperatures and all the rain), but Tsuki still made time for her antics and play, having a blast with her toys, the paper, and boxes. She also enjoyed plenty of birdwatching from the couch and her window shelf. Otherwise, you could find her hiding away in her cat house, snoozing on the couch, passed out on the table (or my sister's sweatshirt that she left on the table), and napping/lounging on her window shelf. Really didn't blame her for taking it easy--it really was that kind of week.
Artwork for the week included more diamond art:
New Creativity Chronicles' articles included:
Keep an open mind as life unfolds. You can get the answers you didn't even know you were looking for unexpectedly. My friends and I have been doing some unintentional deep dives into autism/ADHD, and so many things make so much more sense in light of what we've learned. Life is full of surprises. Be gentle with yourself and keep in mind you're doing the best you can. There could be reasons outside of your control of why you're struggling, so don't blame yourself. Be compassionate with yourself, give yourself time, and trust the process. You'll be just fine being yourself, and the world is a better place with you in it. Don't listen to that harsh inner critic and acknowledge your strengths just as much as any area for growth. You've got this! Have a wonderful week!
Food for thought for the week: