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If You Want the Rainbow, You Gotta Put Up With the Rain

Updated: Jun 8, 2020

I got to see little Iris again this week. I brought over some goodies for April, her mom, and Iris. Iris loved the pool I got for her. She couldn't wait to get in. Her dad was inflating the pool (there were three rings to blow up); once the first ring was inflated, Iris declared, "Yay! It's all done!" Her excitement was adorable and contagious. Once the pool was actually inflated all the way, she got in right away--the fact that there was no water made no difference to her. She couldn't wait to play in the water, though. April told her that she would need to get in her swimsuit to play in the water but that it would be okay to put her hands and feet in at first. Iris decided that meant to jump straight in, soaking herself. She's a hoot. She loved jumping in and out of the pool, splashing the water (and trying to splash everyone else outside of the pool), and pretending to be a puppy. I'm so grateful to have provided so much joy for Iris; she's so sweet and cute.

Speaking of adorable kids, I love Amalah! She's too cute and funny! Here's a recent video from New Father Chronicles : "ARGUING WITH A PRESCHOOL GRADUATE! *my longest video so far*" ( Those sisters are too much; they always make me laugh!

There's a variety of emotions, and people can struggle with emotions. Aaron Abke discusses emotions in his video, "How The Shadow Is Created And Healed // Heal Thyself Podcast," (, "The emotion's never wrong. It's the perception that's wrong... If you ever get triggered with a negative emotion, just like give yourself five seconds to sit with that feeling and emotion before you let yourself respond to it because the mind wants you to be reactive; it doesn't want any space or presence there because it gives you enough time to see clearly." A lot of times people tend to bury the "negative" emotions. That might "work" for the short term, but that doesn't really solve the problem. Sweeping emotions under the rug just lets them build up until they can no longer be ignored, and then there's usually some sort of explosion or break down. If we can acknowledge and sit with the emotion when it first happens, we can work through it; it's a lot easier to "deal" with emotions when they first occur rather than letting them build and fester. Silvana Isaza adds, "Feel the emotion but do not listen to the commentator... You're just a caretaker of that emotion." Emotions are visitors; you are not your emotions. You experience the emotions as the caretaker as Silvana puts it. The emotions will come and go, as they are guests; don't let your guests dictate your life. Be mindful of your guests and recognize them, sure, but they don't get to call all the shots. That's up to you to decide. Emotions in and of themselves aren't necessarily bad or wrong; there can be better and worse ways to deal with and act upon emotions, though. A lot of people believe heartbreak to be "bad." "The Benefit of a Mental Breakdown - Joe Rogan & Duncan Trussell" ( points out, "Heart break is actually your ego cracking. The moment that cracks, you're in the experience of truth, and when you're in the experience of truth, that's when you can really become who you are." Heartbreak might not be all that fun to experience in the moment, but it can provide a crucial springboard for growth. It can help you find your true self and what you truly value. If there's heartbreak, there's something deeper needing to be recognized and understood. Ignoring things will only create more problems.

As a society, many things have been ignored. Many of these are coming to the surface now. Ralph points out in "It's Over." (,

"He [Johann Blumenbach] had to come up with that to justify that some human beings were more superior to other human beings, but this was a lie and an illusion. He even admitted it later on in his life. Race is an illusion. Racism is real; that's an attitude of prejudice because you think your race is superior to someone else's, but, once again, race is an illusion. The reason why it's over... [is because] people are uniting more than ever... People are connecting more than ever right now on the planet. People are banding together. It doesn't matter your color, your creed, your nationality. People are starting to wake up and realize that we are all in this together... Without us, there is no system; there is no world. We are the world; we are the power, and that's why it's over because for the first time people are starting to take back their power... People are starting to realize that unity is how we win. Unity is the only thing that's gonna turn this thing around."

United we rise but divided we fall. It's time for the illusions to dissolve and fade away. Superficial labels aren't what's important--they don't really matter. Labels are just labels. Labels are not who you are. We're all spiritual beings having a temporary physical experience. At our core, at our essence we are all the same. We are all one. Similarly, in his video, "A Message 4 George Floyd 👼🏾 | What Are You Gonna Do About This? 👮‍♂️🚨👁️| Ralph Smart" (, Ralph stresses that we are all one; there is only one "race:" the human race. The concept of different "races" is just an illusion. Ralph emphasizes, "Separation is the greatest illusion. You see, Chinese, Indian, African, British--all an illusion. Black, white--all an illusion. There is only the human race and... we all have a common ancestor." Deep down, we are all the same, all equal; we are all spiritual beings having temporary physical experiences. As such, we need to help others. We are them, and they are us. We are all parts of the same whole. It makes no sense to attack pieces of ourselves. We are no better than others; we are not lesser than others. We all have the power to make a difference. Our voices have power. We can't let history repeat itself. We need to take a stand for what we believe in, even if our voice might shake. What's important to you? Do you want to be part of the solution? What kind of energy do you want to send out to the world? What kind of life do you wish to live? The choice is yours. It's time to choose. It's time to act. Ralph stresses, "Instead of attacking what you hate, start promoting what you love." Fighting fire with fire does not work. Instead douse the flames rather then spreading them with more flames. Ralph asserts, "Now some people, because of this police brutality, they were looting, burning other people's businesses, and you don't want to do that because that's the bait they laid out for you. You have to be smart and say actually, 'Oh, I know what you want us to do. You want us to fight each other,' but, Deep Divers, we are not each other's enemies. We are all in this together... It's over because people are starting to realize... we've been sold a lie, and so many of us have believed it." Don't be deceived by the lie. We're all part of the same whole. We're interconnected. The lie can stay; too many people have been hurt by it. Let's put an end to the suffering. Be the change you wish to see in the world. Change on the outside starts on the inside with you. Ralph points out, "It is all connected... Make sure you are taking care of yourself physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually." If you don't take care of yourself, you can't put forth your best effort. You can't help others if you don't help yourself first and take care of yourself. You can do a lot of greatness for yourself, others, and the world, but you need to ensure you can do so. Breathe. Eat to live. Enjoy life. Rest. Drink water. Savor the sweet sights and wonders of the world. Sure, there will be challenges, but that doesn't change the fact that we're lucky to be alive. Not everyone has this opportunity to do so. Not everyone still has the chance to make a difference. Make the most of the life and opportunities you have. Don't live a life of regrets.

Ralph Smart provides plenty of food for thought on how we live and how we portray ourselves; in his recent video, "How To Manifest Your Vision! | Never Broke Again...Period | Get RICH and Happy | Ralph Smart Live" (, he looks at the concepts of a "job" and being "rich." Ralph illuminates that a job is really "Just Over Broke" and that rich is "Realizing I Create Happiness." It's truly thought provoking. It makes you think about how many people have jobs but those jobs don't provide enough--how many people live pay check to pay check? Also, many people think of rich as having wealth in the form of money (which it can be), but peace of mind and emotional/mental/physical/spiritual well being are great sources of wealth. Your state of mind is extremely powerful. Your perspective influences and can determine your reality. Recognize the power you hold.

Each of us contains immense power. Think about what we can achieve when we join forces. Coming together, we can accomplish great or horrible deeds, depending on our mindset and beliefs. Back in World War 2, Germany banded together; their fear and mindset of superiority led to some horrendous acts. Let's not have history repeat itself. The world has learned that lesson; there's no need to have a replay. Let's take that wisdom and work towards a brighter future. Amanda Ellis, in her recent video "JFK Channelling - USA Time to Come Together" ( refers to and discusses President John F. Kennedy's speech,

"Let us never negotiate out of fear, but let us never fear to negotiate. Let both sides explore what problems unite us instead of belaboring those problems which divide us. Let both sides for the first time formulate serious and precise proposals for the inspection and control of arms and bring the absolute power to destroy other nations under the absolute control of all nations. Let both sides unite to head in all corners of the earth the command of Isaiah to undo the heavy burdens and let the oppressed go free, and if a beachhead of corporation may push back the jungle of suspicion, let both sides join in creating a new endeavor, not a new balance of power but a new world of law where the strong are just and the weak secure and the peace preserved. All this will not be finished in the first 100 days nor will it be finished in the first 1,000 days nor in the life of this administration nor even perhaps in our lifetime on this planet, but let us begin. In your hands, my fellow citizens, more than mine will rest the final success or failure of our course. Since this country was founded, each generation of Americans has been summoned to give testament to its national loyalty--the graves of young Americans who answered the call to service around the globe. Now the trumpet summons us again, not as a call to bear arms, though arms we need, not as a call to battle, though embattled we are, but a call to bear the burden of a long twilight struggle, year in and year out, rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation; a struggle against the common enemies of man: tyranny, poverty, disease, and war itself. Can we forge against these enemies a grand and global alliance, North and South, East and West, that can assure a more fruitful life for all of mankind? Will you join in that historic effort? In the long history of the world only a few generations have been granted the role of defending freedom in its hour of maximum danger. I do not shrink from this responsibility. I welcome it. I do not believe that any of us would exchange places with any other people or any other generation. The energy, the faith, the devotion which we bring to this endeavor will light our country and all who serve it, and the glow from that fire can truly light the world. And so, my fellow Americans, ask not what your country can do for you; ask what you can do for your country. My fellow citizens of the world, ask not what America will do for you but what together we can do for the freedom of man. And, finally, whether you are citizens of America or citizens of the world, ask of us here the same high standards of strength and sacrifice which we ask of you. With a good conscience our only sure reward, with history the final judge of our deeds, let us go forth to lead the land we love, asking His blessing and His help, but knowing that here on Earth God's work must truly be our own."--(John F. Kennedy)

John F. Kennedy called the citizens to action back then, and it's time for the world's citizens to act once again. The world's citizens need to see one another as teammates rather than adversaries. The labels of perceived differences only serve to separate the whole. Joining together will only serve to help us all. We have the power to change the world; together we can and will make a difference. It might not change overnight; it will likely take consistent work on all of our ends, but we can do it. In order for this to work, we need to actually listen to one another. Cooperation and change can't happen when we lack the ability to listen to what others are actually saying. Amanda Ellis remarks, "One of the things John wants to talk about today is the ability to listen; we've all lost the ability to listen. It's almost as though as soon as somebody says something that you don't agree with or that you have a counter view to, our ears close, and we don't listen. We don't listen anymore, so he wants to talk about the fact that we need to get back to listening... There's another message coming in... which is to do with God having our back and us needing to remember that God always has our back... Lean back into the arms of grace; let go and let God." We need to let go of the need to be "right" and control everything. None of us has the whole story, the whole truth, or all of the information. We need to let go and allow others and God/Source/the Universe in. We've got ourselves in quite the sticky situation, and if we continue to go about things the way we've been doing, it will only get worse. We're only going to become more stuck and sink deeper and deeper. Amanda channels John F. Kennedy and explains,

"I have seen my nation's cry for help. I have watched with alarm and horror at what is unfolding in our great country and in the wider world. For we must always remember as Americans that we are part of the wider world and that we are not separate from the world. I have watched as you weep. I have watched as you recoiled in horror at the recent events unfolding across our great land. In truth what is being seen now are acts that have been perpetrated for many years, many decades... The acts that divide us, the acts that are devoid of human decency and respect and courtesy to our fellow man of whatever creed, whatever color, whatever background, and so now we see in our midst the full horror of it. We can no longer turn a blind eye because we are not meant to turn a blind eye this time. This time America is being required to look into the mirror of what it has become and, indeed, what was always there. It is an uncomfortable view. It is an uncomfortable truth of the inherent hatred that some have for their fellow brother and sister. For, truly, all our brothers and sisters of the same human family, the same humanity, but yet this truth has not been internalized, has not been truly understood, has not been heard by a large percentage of the country and, indeed, of the wider world, but here I talk to my fellow country men and women and say it is time to look into the mirror... You can't escape from seeing this... It's the stench of ignorance, prejudice, hatred, superiority, injustice, and darkness, and it will not go away. It will not be cleared up and swept under the carpet because this time America has to look at it... Look at yourself. Look at what we have become. Look at what we are, and look at any part of you that has helped to create this. Every time that you have ignored or turned a blind eye to injustice, to division, to separation, to thinking somebody of a different skin color is inferior to you... We have to heal our own part of the racism that we may have in our family line, and you may now be somebody, who fights for equality and does not have a racist bone in your body, but yet somewhere within the family line... you don't have to look too far for that stain to be there... It's still there because... we carry all of our ancestors within us... Let go of the ancestral damage that has been done to the collective pool that has resulted in 2020 for the death of this man, George Floyd, but equally is resulting in this explosion of race hate across our world... Healing the collective has to start with us, a personal level, and so we have to own our own ancestral stuff... Pray to God for a world where we can truly see each other as souls and not as color of our skin... If we saw each other as souls, the world would truly change... To even ask for forgiveness, you've really got to feel into the fact that it was wrong what happened, what was said, what was done, what was held... The times that you just said nothing, and you allowed something to happen that you knew was wrong, but you said nothing. That is how people in positions of power get away with it. They get away with it because the person just walks on by... We can move beyond this ugliness... Healing is a process, but you keep walking towards it... Accept the lesson. When things don't go our way, something more important to the growth of our soul is in the works."

We can't keep ignoring our problems and carrying on as if nothing is wrong. These problems can only be swept under the rug for so long. They've been building and accumulating for years, decades. The rug can only cover up so much. It might not be noticeable at first, but that bulge is only going to grow as more and more is swept underneath the rug. We're going to get tripped up by it all. We need to face it and own up to it all so we can change and resolve it. Once we begin the process of healing, we can start working towards a better society, a better world. We can't reach it until we heal, though. If we attempt to create before healing, we're only fooling ourselves. Whether large or small, we've all contributed in some manner. Once we recognize the ugliness, we then know where to change and how to act and do better. We can grow as individuals and souls. We're all one, and it's about time we start acting like it. In order to make these changes, it will be beneficial to have strong leaders, but these leaders need to be great. They need to be able to handle the pressures, stick to the true values of the world, and recognize our connection to the greater whole. Amanda Ellis continues with her channeling, attesting

"The true test of a leader is whether they can unify a country. To bring a country, such as the United States with so many different people and ethnicities and things to offer and different cultures--to bring them together in unity, or at least have moments of that, is the true test of a good leader. So that the person feels as though they are part of a greater whole, which is contributing to something worthwhile, which is contributing to the greater good, and that has everybody's interests at heart not just a select few; this is the ultimate test of a good leader: to bring as many along with you but to do so for the right reason and from the right place--not from ego but from the heart, from the soul. To speak for every person within a country not just some. To support large communities, small communities, fringe communities. For America to take its rightful place within the world economy and meeting place of world powers but to not abuse that power, to not belittle others, to work together with other nations, to listen to other nations, to respect other nations, to remember that all are citizens, actually, of this one world... A unifying event that people can put down their differences and remember that, actually, all are not just part of the human race and part of being a citizen of Earth--you are part of something so much bigger than that... If you were an astronaut looking down onto Earth, you would, actually, see that the biggest entity upon this planet is not the United States of America, is not China, is not Russia, is the blue sea--is water; water is actually what unites you. Water is what's within you and what unites you but also is what can separate you... It's about building bridges between communities, between countries, between each other... Never more so have Americans needed to build bridges with their neighbor, to build bridges with each other, to let go of the need to be right... Fairness, strength, humility--these are all characteristics of what a good leader needs to have. Humbleness, to remember that you are acting to serve others, not yourself. To trust in a greater power... the power of God, that you are put there by the grace of God and to try to do God's work and use your time wisely... Choose wisely... which path leads to greater unity and which path leads to greater division? Which path leads to more light? Which path leads to more darkness? ... Anger makes you blind... Keep as calm as you can... Don't be one of the people that are losing their heads. Be one of the people that are holding the energy of peace; you must always, always do that... You can't hate the roots of the tree and not hate the tree--Malcom X... We're all stuck on one part of the tree. We're stuck on a part of the tree collectively, which is this division between color, and we have to somehow move ourselves to a different part of the tree, a different part of consciousness. We have to move beyond this. This seems to be the time that we're meant to move beyond this... To keep strong, to hold together, to look after each other, to be there for each other... I don't have all of the answers, but I'm here to help. I'm here to serve. I'm here to help you find the answers you seek within yourself. That's really what my work was all about; it was to help people realize that it was all within themselves, that we're all part of each other. I really tried to help people see the damage that separating yourself off from your fellow man does, and politics is a great way to do that, religion is a great way to do that... It's an illusion... You need to hold out the olive branch to each other. You need to learn to listen and to let go of the need for being right... Be informed. Do not be obsessed... People are just watching things and hearing things and reading things to confirm their own prejudices a lot of the time... Switch that off and talk to your fellow brother and sister, who are in your street, in your community, in your workplace, in your family... Make peace with that. It's so important to listen."

We need to start with making changes at our roots, our foundation. If we lack a sound, strong, stable foundation, whatever changes we make on the top can crumble and fall. We're all connected; our world can resemble a tree--problems in once section causes trouble for the whole tree. Each part is essential and contributes to the whole. We need to get out of anger and blindly acting and living. We need to open our ear and minds in order to work together to achieve greatness. Sure, we can accomplish great feats on our own, but we can accomplish much grander, larger feats when we band together and join forces. Willingly give peace offerings to others, have each other's backs, hold unconditional love in your heart, and acknowledge your ability to serve. We're in the midst of a severe storm, but we can persevere together.

A lot has happened lately; there's been a lot of chaos hitting the fan, so to speak. Corliss and I caught up and discussed what has been happening. We discussed developments of things (states of family members/friends, ideas, etc.). Corliss recommended watching Brian Scott's "Neville Goddard Awake O, Sleeper!" ( We discussed about the passing on of people; my uncle passed away this week. He wasn't particularly "old," but brain cancer certainly did a number on his body. Corliss and I talked about how people handle the passing of loved ones; she brought up how some people would willingly go back in time to bring their loved ones back. I understand missing your loved ones, but with the state my uncle's body was in I don't know if you could really define that as being "alive." Sure, he was breathing (with help), but his body wouldn't allow him to eat or drink. He was unresponsive. Half his body was shut down from the most recent stroke. Sure, he was "alive," but what kind of life was he living? That certainly doesn't seem to be an enjoyable life to me. While I don't wish death upon others, I don't wish for people to suffer. My uncle loved to communicate, and the fact that he couldn't do so (that even before the most recent stroke he struggled finding his words) makes me wonder how much he enjoyed the last portion of his life. The societal state of everything didn't help; before the lock down, back at the beginning of the year/end of 2019, he had decided he wanted to enjoy the remaining time with his family, watching hockey games and other sports, enjoying pizza, etc. The lock down didn't make it easy. My heart goes out for all of those struggling right now, separated from the ones they love. It's not easy right now, but things are changing. This past week there was a sudden, severe storm; there was a tremendous, torrential downpour. Maybe half an hour later (or maybe it was closer to 15 minutes), it cleared up, and my family went for a walk. What did we find when we looked up? Two giant rainbows. As soon as I looked up and saw them, the song "Ame ga Furu kara Niji ga Deru" by Sky Peace started playing in my head; it starts with "If you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain." We'll find our rainbows. It just might take a little, or a lot, of rain first. We'll survive this storm; it will not break us. It may seem unbearable and unending, but it may cease when you least expect it. I wish everyone well. Stay blessed, my friends~

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