I hope everyone has been doing well and that the energies are treating you gently! It's been another rough week over here; it's been feeling so heavy and dark with people having some seriously twisted, unkind thoughts, beliefs, and choices. It's really discouraging to witness and experience; seeing a lot of patterns play out again and again and again, and, unfortunately, it doesn't seem like people are learning anything from them. Then they try to drag me into the muck, too, seeming to enjoy it all. It truly makes my heart ache, and all of this darkness was leaving me feeling physically ill. Not sure how much longer I can live in this energy. It's a lot. I do hope things have been going more smoothly for all of you. If you want to learn more about the recent full moon energies, feel free to check out the videos below:
My dream recall was pretty hazy Monday morning; it involved some kind of charity, volunteer work, or just helping people in general. Specific details were elusive, but that could be in part due to waking up at like 3 or 4 in the morning and not really being able to go back to sleep. I was kind of tired but simultaneously felt kind of energized. It was unusual. I didn't want to get up on Tuesday morning and was super tempted to go back to sleep. Not really sure what happened in the dream realm, as my recall was shrouded in a haze.
I was unsettled by my dream when I woke up on Wednesday morning. On the surface, the society had seemed great, offering freedoms such as allowing you to go to school when you pleased, but it seemed like nothing but an illusion. There was actually so much control. A lot of people didn't seem to notice, either. People were used as scapegoats, and many would hide things. It seemed to mainly take place in this place that seemed to be a mall, and the "ruler" gave me distinct impressions of Akito from Fruits Basket with their swift changes in mood and lashing out (i.e. unreasonable, unpredictable expectations and swift anger). The education seemed more like indoctrination than actual learning, causing people/children to not question things. There was a boy that had found an injured unicorn, apparently the last unicorn, and was helping it heal in secret. The "ruler" of this society/world had apparently hunted down and killed all of the other unicorn; they were actively looking for any other unicorns to slaughter, too. Some kind of magic in the unicorn got triggered, alerting the "ruler" of its presence, so they sent out all these search parties for it.
The mall/shopping center seemed kind of chaotic if you looked closely at it, like people were being coerced through fear to act certain ways. The family I normally babysit for happened to be there. It came to light that the dad had been the captain of some kind of navy ship and on a mission that went horribly wrong; he ended up recreating everyone that was lost on that mission (including his family) and pretending like it had never happened. He was very protective of all the "people" and seemed to struggle with letting go. I'm pretty sure I ended up provoking him to kind of rebel against the "ruler" because I pointed out that the "ruler" was interested in separating everyone and having everything go according to their rules. There was a group trying to hunt down people because the "ruler" decided it was against the rules to have chicken as a part of meals. There was lots of manipulation, coercion, and control. The "ruler" started cracking down, imposing all of these restrictions, and started arresting people, even children. There was some man that had managed to hide himself as a literal shadow on the wall (like he actually transformed into a shadow) that had been hiding for a long time. Some kind of noise gave him away and the followers of the "ruler" arrested him. He pleaded with the followers to listen to reason and tried to warn them about the leader; turns out, he had used to be one of the "enforcers" before realizing that they were being used and would soon be disposed of. He begged for the followers to see the light because the "ruler" was just going to turn around and dispose of them all before they had the opportunity to betray them, constantly cycling through new "enforcers." The followers just wrote him off as a conspiracy theorist, though. More might have happened, but that's all I could remember once I woke up.
It was super tempting to stay snuggled in bed with the blankets Thursday morning, as it was quite cold. My dream recall was fuzzy, and I kind of just wanted sleep. I looked forward to the weekend and sleeping in. It was another cold morning when I woke up Friday morning, so I was quite tempted to stay warm and cozy in bed while going back to sleep. My dream recall was quite hazy, but I think there was something about helping people. Specifics were elusive. It was nice sleeping in Saturday morning; I allowed myself to just relax in bed and muse/ contemplate about things once I woke up, too. It was so very relaxing. My dream recall was kind of fuzzy, but I remember asking a lot of questions and trying to get to the bottom of things. Whatever it was seemed quite important.
My dreams from Saturday night/this morning seemed to revolve around school. The first thing I could remember was coming to a playground; I seemed to be working for before/after care again. One of my former coworkers seemed to be there, but they seemed off. They just kind of wandered into the school, disregarding the world around them. Kids kept showing up, and I tried to stay on top of keeping everyone accounted for and trying to get them inside, so that we knew who was there. It wasn't easy because other kids were showing up and swarming the playground. One of the kids seemed to be one of my classmates from when I was in elementary school, which was unusual. When I finally got everyone inside the building, there seemed to be some kind of powwow/open-house with the parents. One of my former bosses was there, acting all friendly, and then when someone started discussing Pokémon, she got so mad; apparently, she was the "Pokémon expert," teaching some kind of class on it, and didn't like that other people thought they knew more than her or something.
I think I went down one of the halls at one point, and the dream transitioned; I became a student. I ended up in one of the classes; I think it was an English class. There seemed to be a substitute teacher for the class. I was sitting towards the back of the class, and Ralph Smart was apparently a student, too. At first he started discussing Pokémon with me, but we soon got into discussing deeper, more serious topics of conversation (like meaning of life kind of subject matter). We spent most of the class deep in discussion. Towards the end of class, the substitute came over to express how disappointed she was in us, saying that she didn't know who initiated the conversation but that we should have known better; she couldn't believe we would just shirk off our classwork like that and that she expected better from us. She had some serious shame game, and it honestly felt like she was trying to coerce us into being "good students." She tried to say that we were such major distractions for the rest of the class and that we had been way too loud; in reality, none of the students even seemed to notice our conversation, and if that were true, it made me wonder why she had waited until the end of the class (if it had been so loud and distracting, it would have made more sense for her to try to do something about it way earlier). I thought it was really weird, and then she started putting on all this pressure to have us complete some assignment. More might have happened, but that's all I could remember once I woke up.
The boys were excited to get a new puppy this week; I found it's foster name, Waffles, to be funny. Theo isn't a bad name for a dog, but I think I prefer waffles. One of the boys is prone to stuffing his mouth when he eats, worrying his parents about the potential for choking. One morning, his mom was urging him to eat the Little Bites muffins in two bites to help slow him down. His response was, "Not to be rude, but it's literally in its name: Little Bites." He wasn't wrong, and his mom was simultaneously irked by it while thinking it was kind of cute. His brother went on about sleeping with his eyes open, how it takes eons for him to fall asleep, and that others would die from lack of sleep because they weren't as cool as him. These kids can be quite the riot.
Tsuki was her typical goofy self. She enjoyed all of her cat naps, soaking up the sunshine, birdwatching, investigating, playing, and getting into some mischief. Tsuki ended up trying to steal diamonds from my diamond art kit, spying on me as I continued working on it. She can be so nutty yet adorable, and she always makes us laugh. Tsuki is such a blessing.
I started working on a new diamond art design this week, opting for some purple butterflies to give my mom for her birthday next month.
I wrote more new content for Creativity Chronicles this week and created new articles for Luck's List! Feel free to check out the newest articles!
New Creativity Chronicles' articles included:
New Luck's List articles:
Please remember to be gentle with yourself and take care; things are getting rather intense, and self-care is more important than ever. Forcing things is becoming rather impossible; things are falling apart and crumbling before our eyes. Anything not meant for us is drifting away. It is quite a lot to experience, so make sure to show yourself kindness and love. You're doing the best you can. No one person has all the answers, so don't judge yourself harshly. You're so much more amazing that people can give you credit for. Listen to your heart, follow your joy, and do what makes you happy. In a world full of such unhappiness, anger, frustration, despair, and fear, that is truly a superpower. You can change the world for the better just by being your authentic self. Give yourself permission to be genuine--in a world full of fakes, choose to be real. Making that decision will light the way for others and help them see that they can choose it, too. You're amazing and worthy of happiness and love. Don't sell yourself short--you have so much potential if you choose to utilize it. Have a wonderful rest of your Easter weekend, and stay blessed with love and light~
Food for thought from Ralph Smart on Infinite Waters:
Food for thought to consider:
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