Happy April!

March turned out to be a crazy month in terms of energies. March felt like one thing after another, without much breathing room. My friends and I definitely grew a lot, but it was so intense and draining. It would be nice if April would ease up a bit and give us a bit of a break, but it almost feels like it's not going to stop. Hopefully, the energies have been treating you well and being gentler because it's been quite the ride over here.

I was able to sleep in Monday morning and actually get 8 hours of sleep before babysitting, which was phenomenal; it truly makes a world of a difference. Granted, that didn't make up for nights of little to no sleep, but I felt considerably better after a quality night's sleep. My dream recall was veiled in a haze, though, so I'm not sure what transpired.

The negative beings/dark entities really don't like it when April, Corliss, and I are together, especially when we step into our power like Monday evening. In my dream Monday night/Tuesday morning, I had been walking around the area with April and Corliss like we had in the physical earlier. We were walking on one of the quieter streets and got a strange feeling. Corliss went ahead to check it out a bit. She immediately came back and told us we had to go the other way. We felt it, so we started walking in the opposite direction at a somewhat brisk pace; we knew not to put energy into fear but felt the strong, intuitive nudge to not dally. Ahead on the side street there was this strange fog/mist that was unsettling. Corliss mentioned that we should start heading to the main road when we reached the intersection of the side street that led to the library.

As we were getting ready to head down that side street, a "man" suddenly appeared--almost as if he had popped out of thin air, but I got the impression that he was just moving that quickly, sort of like how Sesshomaru in InuYasha can seem to appear out of nowhere because he can just move that swiftly. His physical vessel resembled a human man, but he didn't feel it energetically. He felt incredibly intense and like bad news. It was blatantly obvious that he was after us, too. I suppose some people would like the way this being looked, as I remember there were muscles, but my soul wanted to be nowhere near this being. We kept moving, and the being/"man" tried to grab me. I remember digging my nails into him to make him let go, and he wasn't happy about it.

We ended up getting stopped at the stop lights at the main road. Corliss was calling someone for backup, and this pedestrian lady appeared; once she saw that she needed help, she started calling out for help and screaming for 911 (although, I'm pretty sure she shouted, "Call 111!" the first time). The being looked at her, and she stopped speaking. More and more pedestrians appeared, but they seemed rather vacant. People just seemed to be gathering without even realizing what was going on and just standing there (kind of gave me the impression of a herd of sheep).

I thought it was ridiculous for us all to be just standing around, so I went to check out the main road. Upon the main road, I saw that reality kind of seemed to end; just a little further down the street, everything became engulfed in darkness; it felt like the being was warping reality and trying to trap people. It seemed to notice I was trying to help everyone get away and sent some kind of minion after me. I felt pain in my ankles and looked down to see some black creature. It sort of reminded me of a leech fused with Venom from Spiderman; it didn't have any eyes, though and didn't actually have legs. It kind of had a tail in the place of legs, somewhat resembling the lower half of traditional depictions of a ghost/genie. It was completely black and had sharp teeth. I was rather annoyed with the thing, and managed to pull it off of me and toss it aside. It basically hissed at me and thought about trying to attack me again. I was fed up and basically used summoned pure sunshine directly on it; it absolutely hated it and vanished.

The "man" being was royally pissed off that things were working for him. Pretty sure that he/it was in the process of summoning more of his weird, little minions to try to "rectify" the situation, as they weren't going according to his plans. April, Corliss, and I decided enough was enough and came together. We joined hands and started channeling our power, more than fed up with the situation. Pretty sure the being was angry/scared. We were just about to banish the being when I woke up. Upon waking my first thought was, "They really don't want us together and are trying to keep us apart because they're scared of what we're capable of. Huh."

My dream recall was pretty hazy when I woke up on Wednesday morning, and it was so cold that I just wanted to stay snuggled and warm in bed. The little that I could remember involved being at some kind of store/mall. I had wanted to find a gift for my youngest brother. There was something about a unicorn. April and Corliss tried to help me find something/what I was looking for, but it proved challenging. They spotted something that was being sold for $28 instead of the store's normal $38, but I had remembered seeing it online for like $8 before, so it seemed silly to get it there. More probably happened, but that's all I remembered upon waking.

I really didn't want to get up Thursday morning and was so tempted to just curl up and go back to sleep. It was such a mood, and I was feeling so groggy, which made dream recollection super hazy. I almost fell back asleep Friday morning, which would have been bad news in terms of honoring my commitments and taking the boys to school. It was a challenge getting up, and my dream recall was veiled in a haze.

Sleeping in on Saturday morning was super enjoyable; it soothed the soul. I also enjoyed lounging in bed and contemplating things once I woke up. It was super relaxing, and I look forward to the time when it could happen any day rather than just the weekends. My dream recall was somewhat fuzzy, but I remembered being in the car with my parents and siblings. We seemed to be driving around some countryside or small town. I didn't recognize the area. Apparently, my dad was going to pick up some tractor from one of the residents in the area. One of my brothers was making comments; the specific words were kind of hazy, but at one point he was talking about getting Dragon Ball Z collectibles for some reason. More seemed to happen, but that's all I could remember upon waking up.

I was able to sleep in again this morning, and it was magical. Sleep is a wonderful thing. My dream recall was a bit fuzzy, but I remember being at a school. I think I was working as one of the staff. I had been wandering around the halls and entered one of the classrooms. The kids were working on some writing assignment. They were creating fun stories. At one point the teacher decided to put on a movie (maybe as a celebration/reward). The kids were gathering around, excited to watch it. One of the little boys stopped what he was doing and came up to me. When he reached me, he whispered, "I love you," with a huge smile and then quietly returned to his spot to watch the movie. It was super adorable.

The boys were a bit disappointed to go back to school with the end of spring break, but they were also excited to go back (although one of them started counting down the days until summer break). I ended up getting into a deep conversation with the younger brother about fish and sea life. He told me all about his plans for his fish tank, which led to discussing the state of aquariums (and whether or not the animals in them were actually thriving), sharks, the stereotypes/myths behind animals, etc. It was quite fun. One afternoon the younger of the two boys asked if we could take his friend home because they needed a ride home; I saw no issue with it. When we dropped the friend off, I wished them well and a great rest of their day; the kid was so confused by it. I didn't see why it was so confusing, but then I remembered how weird and disconnected my family is, realizing that most people probably don't say things like that. The boys and I also got into a conversation about fear versus caution, awareness, and being prepared; they were getting anxious because everyone seems to be talking about how there's supposed to be some huge storm and potential tornadoes. I helped them calm down, discussing about how forecasts and predictions don't necessarily come true; anything is possible, so maybe it will happen but that doesn't mean it's guaranteed. Then they made the connection with how sometimes they make predictions for a bunch of snow yet it doesn't snow at all. I was grateful to be able to help them out and help them get some perspective.

Tsuki was her typical goofy self. She was so glad that I was back this week, enjoying snuggling on the very cold days and just hanging out with me. Tsuki loved the warmer days, basking in the sunshine out on the porch. She enjoyed her cat naps, watching me work on diamond art (and trying to steal the diamonds), knocking over plants, lounging on her cat scratcher cave, and just living her best Tsuki life. She's so freaking adorable and funny.

More emotional/trauma exploration and healing happened with my friends again. It just keeps coming. It's intense and exhausting, but we recognize how important it is. Pretty sure April's late dad showed up Monday night to comfort her. Lots of vulnerability and just feeling emotions. On Wednesday Corliss and I got into further deep discussions. In the middle of the conversation, Corliss mentioned not being a perfect person, and my mind immediately started thinking of Hoobastank's "The Reason." We had a moment with the song, feeling it deep, and in the middle of the song, I realized that this was our past selves talking to our new selves; it totally changed how we viewed the song and made it all the more emotional. We've been feeling like we're being born into new people, and it just felt way too fitting. Life can be quite hard, but we're doing the best we can at any given moment.

I finished the diamond art unicorn kit my aunt gave me; now all I need is the special glue/sealant so the diamonds don't fall off and then I can surprise my aunt with it.

I continued writing new content for Creativity Chronicles this week and wrote some more for Luck's List! Feel free to check out the newest articles!

New Creativity Chronicles' articles included:

-Sketching tips

-Painting with acrylic paint

New Luck's List articles:

-Tie dye jeans

Make sure you take time for yourself and prioritize self-care, especially when energies are so intense. While it might seem unproductive or "pointless" to rest and relax when your body needs it, you won't be able to contribute your best work and best self when you fail to take proper care of yourself. Some days will need to be lighter in terms of traditional productivity, but taking care of yourself and making sure you're well rested is a very important form of productivity. Show yourself love, kindness, and compassion. You're doing the best you can. It's okay to take it easy when you need it. It's okay to do things at your own pace. It's okay to be the work-in-progress. You're still amazing even if you have a rough day; you still are worthy of love and affection. Be gentle with yourself, and listen to your heart. Do what feels right in the moment, even if "reason" might tell you otherwise. Your heart and soul know what you need; magic will happen when we learn how to truly listen. Stay blessed with love and light, everyone, and enjoy the rest of your weekend!

Food for thought from Ralph Smart on Infinite Waters: