I hope December is treating you well! Life and other people have been acting up lately, but that doesn't mean you need to let it bring you down. This past year has been a lot, but it has built off what I already know, reinforcing what I already know to be true while adding more depth, nuance, and layers of understanding. People have often sought me out for advice, even if I wasn't very knowledgeable on the specific subject matter, but upon reflection, it makes sense. I've always strove to openly listen to others, seeing multiple perspectives while having an empathetic, kind heart. I've also always picked up on things that other people miss, so that can be a nice perspective to gain insight from. Don't get me wrong, though--I'm most definitely a human with areas for growth and areas of challenge. This past year seems to be a year of recognizing who/what deserves my time, energy, and effort, as well as self understanding, confidence, and acceptance. It's been a lot, but I've come out stronger, wiser, and better for it. Can't say that everything has been enjoyable, but I'm stepping further and further into my true, authentic self and finding the right people that value, support, and love me for who I am. I hope you all can do the same. If you want to learn more about the full moon in Gemini, check out the videos below:
People have been passing on messages about how members of the drama group have been regretting results and consequences, saying that members miss me and the like. While that does suck for them, I can't say the feeling is mutual. I look for healthy, reciprocal relationships--I don't play games when it comes to friendship and matters of the heart. My siblings and peers were all obsessed with "being popular," but I have always prioritized quality over quantity. I don't need popularity nor have I ever wanted it. If people can't be real with me, if they can't have integrity, accountability, and open, honest, respectful, vulnerable conversations with me, I don't want it. I don't want any of the pretend, two-faced, disingenuous nonsense that society seems to be all about.
I don't miss the mistreatment and complete disregard for me as they engaged in belittling, gaslighting, and invalidation. I want no part in that, and I'm much happier now that I'm away from that group. They're likely still engaging in their trash talk and smear campaigns, but those with the eyes to see and ears to hear will always know what is actually true. Someone that actually adores and appreciates me recently declared that "creativity, luck, protection, change, positivity, friend" describes me perfectly, that I am their lucky ladybug. There are those out there in the world that value me for who I am, cherishing our time together, so I don't need to waste my time, energy, and effort on those that refuse to treat me well. One of the group is officially diagnosed as a narcissist (ABN: Avoidance Borderline Narcissistic to be exact), so I guess I shouldn't be surprised. Also, to those in the group--you are very much seen and you're not "pulling one over on me." I know what you've been up to and that you've been keeping tabs on me. You're not hidden--the truth always comes to light. Good luck to you because if you keep going down the path you're on, you're desperately going to need it.
For anyone that needs it, here are some short, inspirational messages for learning, healing and growth. They come from a variety of people, such as Michelle Patterson from Angel Souls, Dr. Ramani, and Phil Good, among others. There are plenty of people that are choosing to be toxic in this world; let them go so that they no longer drag you down and harm you. You deserve so much better than how they've mistreated you, and you don't need to put up with it. They may choose their petty, manipulative games, but you don't need to participate. You can make yourself scarce and spend your precious time and energy on people and things that support, nurture, and benefit you.
The boys had their last regular week of school before finals and winter break next week. They seem pretty ready for the exams and excited for the break. Plus, the two of them eagerly chatted about the game awards that would be announced. The younger brother did end up complaining about his one math teacher, and from the sounds of it, she's a pretty lousy teacher. Granted, I'm not in the class, but if what he says is true, she never really answers questions, she doesn't show how answers are achieved on answer keys (so that means students don't know how they went wrong if their answer is incorrect), she insists on everything being super structured where she is basically just talking at the students, etc. It sounds like a really lousy learning environment, honestly, and I feel bad for him. He cares a lot about learning, but he's frustrated that she isn't working with the class to promote understanding but more "checking off boxes" that she needs to "teach." The younger brother also came out one day spinning stories about how he was jumped by a friend and assaulted by a kamehame to the stomach, but he also assured us that we shouldn't worry about damage done to the school since he absorbed all of the attack's energy.
One afternoon I spotted this massive bird overhead, which was cool, but upon closer inspection, it turned out to be a bald eagle circling above their school, which was a first. I pointed it out to him, and he thought it was incredible. It soared above the school for another minute or two before flying off right as the younger brother got into the car.
The younger brother thought it was cool, too, and he then proceeded to launch into this creative tale about his "brother" the bald eagle, which was apparently named Duke. Duke was apparently the greatest brother ever, as he told us that he had been 5 while Duke was 7. He went on to explain that sadly, Duke was no longer. The older brother kept exclaiming that it wasn't true, that they never had a brother named Duke and that I shouldn't believe the younger brother. Unperturbed, the younger brother remarked that his brother had merely forgotten about Duke, and that Duke had met his demise years ago. When asked how, he didn't miss a beat and said that he had eaten his brother. He then went on to say that it had been Duke's time, that it had been unavoidable.
He then made the argument that if someone was trying to murder you, that you couldn't just say it wasn't your time. I pointed out that someone could say that, which he reluctantly agreed before insisting that it wouldn't change anything. His brother, deciding to play along since his brother was refusing to stop his story, then declared that his younger brother had shoved Duke into his mouth. His younger brother scoffed at this before correcting him by retorting that he boiled Duke in gravy and then ate him. When I inquired if that was even a thing (I've never heard of cooking something in boiling gravy), he assured me that it was possible if you tried hard enough. The younger brother then declared that Duke had been delicious. When his older brother asked him why he had a tape measure, he simply answered that he had used it to take care of Duke before boiling him in gravy because nobody just lets themselves get boiled.
Tsuki had a pretty laid-back week, full of snuggly and cozy cat naps (can't say I blame her, though, because the colder winter weather definitely makes it ideal to stay cozy indoors and snooze). This week was one full of rest and relaxation, enjoying birdwatching from her window shelf, snuggling up in a new cat house (before my sister snatched it for her cat), being cozy by the fire, chilling on her cat condo, napping on the bed and her favorite chair, and more. I look forward to spending more time with Tsuki over winter break and staying cozy together.
Artwork for the week included more diamond art:
This week I created more new content for Creativity Chronicles, so feel free to check out the newest content! I also have added a new section called Thought Spot that explores various topics of thought and conversation, so feel free to explore it!
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New Creativity Chronicles' content included:
Life can be a wild journey, full of ups, downs, twists, and turns. Remember to be gentle with yourself as you navigate this winding path. If you need to slow down, do so. Take your time, remember to breathe, and get present with the moment. Bring more awareness to your life, and you can gain so much more. Yes, it can be challenging to do so during the hectic holiday season, but when you do give yourself the opportunity to do so, you empower yourself so much more. Give yourself permission to speak up with the truth, stand firm with boundaries, and live authentically. You don't need to live like the others do, nor do you need to play their disingenuous, petty, manipulative games. Just because that's what others do and have done doesn't make it right. Those old, twisted ways are breaking down and no longer working. The truth is coming to light, and they can no longer hide, so shine bright as the true you. You've got this. It might be scary at first, but the more you step into it, the easier it becomes. Just be yourself and your people, the ones that will support, guide, nurture, value, and love you, will find you. Don't settle for less than you deserve because great things are heading your way if you let them in and make space for them. Wishing you a wonderful holiday season and an incredible rest of the year!
Food for thought for the week included:
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