I hope everyone is enjoying the holiday season! It's been rather intense with energies: solar flares, the new moon, the solar eclipse, and then we have the upcoming winter solstice paired with the Jupiter-Saturn conjunct. Things are getting rather intense. I've certainly been feeling it (it sounds like my friends have, as well); I've been feeling rather lethargic lately, especially this weekend. At one point I got incredibly warm suddenly paired with a major headache; it dissipated within about 30-45 minutes, but it wasn't the most enjoyable experience. Lots has been coming up to the surface as of late (mostly for healing purposes). Here's some info and a meditation about the new moon and solar eclipse we just experienced:
We have the solstice and Jupiter-Saturn conjunct coming up, and Amanda Ellis provides some insight into the energies of this special occasion:
It was another week of tutoring this week. He was working on a project for his tech and engineering class that looked pretty neat. I asked him about it, and he said that it was his "cheese block project" that was teaching him about working with angles. He didn't want to elaborate, but I couldn't blame him for wanting to focus on his work. It looks like fun (I might want to try to do something similar). Funnily enough, when he kind of kicked off his shoe, it landed standing up against their space heater--it's a pretty impressive feat. They requested my assistance over the weekend so I could help him create some gifts for a friend using Perler beads. It was lots of fun; he wanted to create some Among Us crewmates: a red and blue one. I made some guides using graphing paper beforehand to help us figure out what we wanted to do. He decided to temporarily name them Fred and Gary (and then proceeded to make more requests for projects I should make for him using Perler beads lol). He was super excited to show off what he made to his parents; I love how providing opportunities to be creative and allow kiddos to choose what they create enlivens them--they come to live with such vibrant joy. I genuinely want to create a space for them to experience that all the time; it's become blatantly obvious that the traditional school setting is quite lacking when it comes to that. It may be a small scale currently, but I genuinely appreciate that I can help them out and provide the resources for him to tap into his creativity. I'm super grateful to be able to help out this sweet family. They got me a holiday card and included a gift card; I'm touched beyond words that they thought of me. It's another reminder from the universe that I make a positive difference, even if it sometimes doesn't quite feel like it is so. It's a reminder that I matter and to never give up. Thank you for the reminder, universe!
Here are the recent Perler bead creations I've made for gifts. I'm still open to recommendations for future projects, so feel free to make suggestions!
I also made a bunch more of the Perler bead/fuse bead bowls (thus far, they've been a huge hit with everyone that I've given them to so far; both Iris and the kid I've been helping with online school became super attached to them and carry them around with them everywhere they go). I tried out some new color combinations (monochromatic, analogous, complimentary, etc.) along with the typical rainbow type I've been making. It's lots of fun, and I feel like it's a cool gift to give (feels atypical to what are considered traditional gifts).
Fluffy cat was extra snuggly again this week, always wanting to cuddle up on me in bed. She even snuck underneath the covers with me. The week was mostly cold, but it warmed up by this weekend (much to her appreciation since that meant she would stay outside longer and be comfortable still). She's such a cute cat; I love you, my fluffy cat!
Like usual, I read some more fanfic this past week. The stories for this week include: Life After Loss, Mochi Miscommunication, A Proposal Carefully Refined, Summer in Japan, I Wanna Be the Very Best, The Green-eyed Monster, Seven Days of Sesshomaru and Kagome, The Wrong Brother, Stranger than Fiction, Haunting, and Memory. If you have any recommendations for a good fanfic, please pass it on! I'd love to know about it! Also, I've been craving to play a game where you can play as Sesshomaru (preferably one delving into his backstory/a storyline from his perspective), so if you know of one, please let me know! I remember back in the day with one of the Playstation InuYasha games (I think it was InuYasha: The Secret of the Cursed Mask) I made a special save file so I could go running around as Sesshomaru (to progress forward in the game you'd have to complete some kind of quest/task and then Sesshomaru would leave your party--I didn't want that lol). I just want to play games with Sesshomaru again.... A few years ago I found some mobile game for InuYasha, and I immediately worked on acquiring Sesshomaru for it (lol), but sadly the game is no more... I wouldn't mind if it's a mobile game, a console game, a pc game, or even a fan-made game--I just want to play. I was super excited by the latest episode of YashaHime, though; the preview makes it look like Miroku (and maybe even Sango) will be coming back in the next episode, so hopefully more and more of the original cast will return (including Sesshomaru, yay~ I always wanted Sesshomaru to have more screen time back in InuYasha... Can anyone guess why the third and fourth InuYasha movies are my favorites? Lol). Here's hoping we get to learn more about all the characters we love (including our new trio of powerful girls)! April came over to catch up and celebrate my birthday this weekend, and, like I did with Corliss, we watched Weathering With You. The animation is simply breathtaking; thank you, Makoto Shinkai, for another beautiful piece of art and amazing story! Weathering With You definitely makes one wonder about what really goes on in the sky and what might be up there, just out of view.
The sky was so pretty this week! Plus, it even snowed (not a lot, but considering one of my friends was convinced the next time it would snow would be next year, I still appreciate it).
This week the construction on the bathroom wrapped up; the walls finally came in. Unfortunately, they didn't hook the water back up correctly as when you attempt to take a shower, half of the water comes out of the showerhead while the other have comes out the faucet. It's progress, considering that the shower lacked walls and didn't work at all the previous four weeks, but it's a bit disappointing that it still is completely finished. Oh, well. There are worse things, eh? At least it looks nice.
The December Goddess Provisions box arrived this week! It seems a bit late compared to previous months (I got the November box at the end of October lol). I'm thinking that the postal and delivery services are a bit loaded at the moment due to the holidays (something I ordered on November 28th that was supposed to arrive by December 5th didn't arrive until December 17th, sooo.... yeah). Best wishes to you postal and delivery services! We appreciate you! I can only imagine what it must be like to make all those deliveries. Regardless, I appreciate receiving my deliveries and all my new goodies!
Let's remember to keep calm this holiday season. We're safe. The universe loves us. Maybe things won't all go according to our plans (but when do they ever do that? Lol), but that doesn't mean it has to be the end of the world. We can still make the best out of what we have. We can improvise. We can adapt. We can be innovative and flexible. We're smart cookies! We can handle a lot more than we give ourselves credit for (granted, we might prefer not to experience certain things, but, still, we can handle them). Things are going to change. The seasons change every single year, so yeah, change is unavoidable (besides, if nothing ever changed, it'd likely be really stagnant and boring--who wants that?). Things might be unpredictable, but that doesn't have to be a bad thing--you could be pleasantly surprised. Sure, it's important to be grounded and not out in la-la land, but there's nothing wrong with keeping a positive outlook and seeking out the silver lining. Whatever you're feeling as the year of 2020 comes to a close, feel those emotions. Embrace them. Accept them. Acknowledge that you feel them rather than sweeping them under the rug, but that doesn't mean you have to stay there. If you're feeling down, sad, angry, depressed, etc. those are real feelings. You're allowed to feel; just because you feel something doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. You don't have to be happy all the time. Humans come with a large variety of emotions. As things change, your emotions are bound to change, as well. Just because you were upset last week, yesterday, or this morning doesn't mean you need to stay in that feeling forever. You're allowed to feel joy. Don't belittle yourself for finding it. Don't belittle yourself for feeling "negative" emotions, either. It's okay. Allow yourself to process your feelings. You'll be grateful for it later. I've noticed that a lot of people's emotions and hurts that have been swept under the rug previously have been coming up A LOT right now. You don't have to run away from your emotions. If you feel that you need someone to help you through an emotion, it's okay to receive assistance. Find someone that you trust, someone that loves you and wishes the best for you--they can help you work through it. You're stronger than you know. Maybe you don't believe in yourself right now. That's okay; that can easily change. Others believe in you, though, so if believing in yourself is too much for the moment, then believe in the people, who believe in you. It's okay to receive support from others. Nobody can do everything alone. Together, we're stronger. Together, we can change the world for the better. Together, we will see the light of the new dawn, rising on the start of 2021. 2020 has been quite the year, and it's brought a lot of insight, growth, and change. We're going to keep growing and improving. Have faith. Everything will work out just fine. We're supported by a loving universe. We've got this! Stay blessed. Stay well. Stay loving. Love and light, everyone~
Like usual, Ralph Smart provides insight and food for thought on Infinite Waters:
Here's some food for thought: